Emotions

As most of you already know my Dad had a heart attack on Thursday. The emotions that I have went through the last couple of days are undescribable.

I wasn't prepared for the phone call that said your dad is having chest pains, is clammy, and having problems breathing. We are taking him by ambulance to the hospital as a precautionary measure. I'm not stupid, the signs were there. My dad was having a heart attack! And I was scared beyond belief.

I am about to be 31 years old, but I NEED my dad! I love him and I am not ready to lose him. His grandkids need him, I need him. Please GOD don't take him.

I immediately went to Fond du Lac to be with him. Surprisingly he looked good, and was in pretty good spirits. Told me I didn't have to come to the hospital. The doctors told him they were gonna keep him for the night just to make sure everything was okay. The EKG's looked good, but just wanted to make sure. They would do a stress test on Friday and if that looked good he would go home. I was relieved!

That night they had done some blood work that showed some elevated enzymes, which I guess points towards heart problems. The stress test was cancelled and instead a balloon type procedure would be done with possible shunts if needed. Well, this is where the fun begins! My dad's left side of his heart was blocked and a main artery was 100% blocked and they put in 5 shunts. Little did I know until today that my dad was seconds away from having emergency open heart surgery. It was worse than what the doctor's had thought. Thank God they did the blood work.

God wasn't ready to take him yet, and I couldn't be happier!

Today he was released from the hospital and my sister and I and the grandkids went to visit. He was in really good spirits, despite the fact that he has given up cigars (hopefully for good). I would hate to say that I took my parents for granted before this, but I guess in some ways I did. I don't consider them "old" and I would like to think they will be around for a very very long time. But the truth of the matter is, is that we aren't guaranteed tomorrow! So live everyday like it's your last, because it really might be. Thankfully, Thursday wasn't my dad's last day. And I couldn't be more grateful to the Lord for that.

Tonight was hard to leave Mayville. I wanted to stay with my dad even though I could tell he was tired and needed is rest, but I wanted to make sure he would really be okay. And saying good-bye tonight was hard.

Hopefully the worry and being scared part will slowly fade, but for now, I'm worried and I'm scared. ALOT! Putting my trust in the Lord is so hard. Because I need to be in control, that's the type of person I am. And handing it over to someone else isn't easy. I pray that God helps me with that. Cause man it's not easy!

I ask those reading this to continue to pray for my dad. Cause I'm sure he's scared as well and could really use some comfort. Hopefully his faith will help him through.

Good Friends

Moving to Appleton was a hard choice for us 6 years ago this August, however, the friends that we have made here makes it soooo much easier. When I moved here I didn't think I would find one of my best friends here let alone to find she is the Pastor's wife! :-) She is someone that I can go to with ANYTHING and know that I can tell her anything with confidence that it's between just her and I. I don't know what I would do if I didn't have her in my life. And now that we both have kids, it is so much fun to see them becoming best friends as well. Mallory and Kamryn play together just like sisters, fight just like sisters, tattle etc. It is so neat to see them grow up together. Isaiah bless his heart tries to be one of 'em, but isn't into playing dolls and wearing heals, lol. He loves Brinley like his own sister. We are just truly blessed to have the Seabaughs in our lives.

And I guess it's not just the Seabaugh's, but as I look back on our 6 years in Appleton, I don't know that I could ever leave here. So many great friends that feel like family, who have been through my miscarriages with me, through my pregnancies with me and all of lifes ups and downs. My friends up here feel like all the great friends that I left behind in Mayville that don't get me wrong, I miss like crazy as well. But I think the balance that we have now gained since moving here is priceless. I miss my sister like nothing could explain, but we talk daily and get together as often as we possibly can, so I feel like life is good and I am very content with where my life is right now.

And I don't think I would be the person I am today without my best friend Becky as well as ALL of my other friends that I have made while here. And I know my girls will have GREAT friends here as well.

God is good and he had us move here for a reason and while it isn't always easy, we LOVE IT!